Peace in the Stillness

As I sat in the emergency room in the midst of a Global Pandemic, I realized something: I was in the emergency room because my anxiety had been through the roof to the point that I felt like I was literally having a stroke (I am a Virgo and slightly dramatic lol). However, I kept pondering in my head, “How did I get here?” Well, I was Juggling multiple things. I was taking on everything and anything that people threw at me. I had been neglecting myself to make other people happy. I was literally giving all that I had to give, and was told it was not enough. In turn, It made me question my worth.

Have you ever noticed that the enemy will use people to make you feel as if you have not changed or progressed? For example, they can use words that in the past would trigger you, and you find yourself regressing two steps backwards mentally. I have personally been in these situations and I remember feeling insecure. I would literally re-play the words in my mind to the point that I allowed that negative energy to attach to me. It caused a sense of depression and loneliness. I questioned myself, and asked myself: “Are these negative connotations a correct representation of my worth.” I eventually had to be intentional about changing the way that I viewed myself. I began writing affirmations on my mirror and allowing the positivity to resonate with me.

I have learned that I cannot allow someone's negative opinion of me to attach to my identity. I understand that sometimes the negativity can be so repetitive that it can become like a broken record in your mind to the point that you believe it. However, find peace in the stillness. When you quiet your mind and become aware that this is a part of your spiritual and emotional warfare, you will help it to fuel the path to your true Identity. Remember beloved, your identity is not reflected based on who people say you are. You have one creator and those energy vampires ain't it. 

In conclusion, needless to say, I am good now. I still have moments where I have to train myself to set boundaries to protect my mental. However. I celebrate my small liberation moments along the way---as you should :)

Queen, Know who you are without a shadow of doubt. The enemy’s  plot is to watch your empire come crashing down. 

Adjust your crown

Fix your posture

 Inherit that Queendom